Well, this is interesting isn’t it? In my head, Armageddon was going to involve explosions, maybe a meteor or two or at least a couple of green aliens. Instead, we are being floored by some tiny mutating cells.
Well, I’ve just realised as I write that I have been floored by some tiny, mutating cells for the past nine months, so, same s*&t, different day.
Cancer, what cancer?
The cancer treatment has almost faded into the background with all that has been going on- almost, but not quite. Radiotherapy does take a toll on the body. I am burnt where I am having the treatment, and even though I am only having it on my front, my back is burnt as well, so it clearly goes deep!
It is also very tiring, and, with the whole of France (nay, the World) on lockdown, now is really not the time to be tired. Schools are shut, and whereas some kids seem to be given an order to ‘do some maths, do some reading’, in Max’s class, it is full on, with a complete list of schoolwork sent in an email every night, as well as recorded lessons!
I have to take my hat off to the teacher, she is doing a magnificent job with distance learning, but I have gone from being stressed earlier in the week about how much work there was, to now taking the attitude of we will do what we can do.
The Brave New World quote, although associated with George Orwell’s 1984, was originally taken from The Tempest. In full it reads “How beauteous mankind is! O brave new world / That has such people in’t!” I think, if I recall correctly, Miranda was referring to appearance, but in reality, when you apply it to people’s hearts and souls, the world really does have some beauteous people in it.
A friend of mine in the UK, who is a bit of a whirling dervish to say the least, approached me about doing a fundraiser for me, given my self-employed status through treatment. It seems bonkers to me now, but at the time, I had my reservations. What makes me so special? was my thought, when there are many people out there with less. The reality is, we all (and now more than ever), need to take help when it is offered, and take care of each other.
As another friend pointed out, people would not offer to help if they did not want to, and my duty, when I am back on my feet is to pay it forward. I will never be able to thank enough the people who have helped me out, from creating great fundraisers such as this one to delivering dinners. all in all, cancer has been an incredibly humbling experience.